Who do you look up to?

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Earlier this week something happened, Monday precisely; as promising as I was I almost died.

In my early years especially, as a teenager I drew nigh to God and I think He in return  was good to me . As time passes by and I grew older I began to doubt God in little by little.

I allowed my heart to ponder over why my absolute conclusion should be 'God is so Good' when there are many things that could have made Him a more good God in my life that he didn't do.

First, I remembered my periods of total solace in God when I had to do 100days fasting and prayer while still working hard, praying like it's only prayer I needed to gain admission into the Prestigious law faculty of the university of Benin and Studying like I never prayed, I even made covenant to God in my bid to get my prayer request granted buh again God had the final say.

I also recalled those heart felt prayers I made to God on behalf of the one I love for him to please make way for him where their seems to be no way, I really poured out myself to Him. I let Him know my brokenness; afterall, was He not the one who said we should bring it all at His feet that he cares? Again... I let it go.

I also knew I consulted Him before any relationship before anything I do buh how come I always ended up hurting?.

...buh then momma has always sang it to my ears that God was and is my source so I couldn't totally shut him off my life...

But on Monday, after about 4_5mins of being caught up in the middle, not knowing if I was gonna die or live, Still in there, I had my  memory flashback to things that happened earlier. I could remember telling momma confidently not to worry that soon things would be alright, though, I wasn't sure when that was gonna be... Then suddenly reality dawn on me, if I couldn't because of some inevitable circumstances alleviate some burdens off momma's shoulder at least I shouldn't add to it. Then I remembered the days of my total trust in Him when I had boldly told Him in mutual closeness that 'My life was not on the road' When I remembered this there was calmness in my spirit buh the moment I gathered strength to proclaim it was my spirit even calmer same calmness was transcended to the bus

I'm alive Hallelujah!!! Those that put their absolute trust in God shall never be put to shame!!! God lives people.

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